Day 1: There is no turning back

When God closes a door, He opens a window

Amen, Amen, and Amen! God is the God of opportunities and blessings! He will never fail us, just BELIEVE. 

 Now, I will be writing a series of "post-break-up-lessons-learned-blogs" for the next few weeks, I will consider this as well as my outlet to release all the pain and frustrations I am feeling... and I want as well my readers, to learn with me in the process. Yes, moving on will always be the hardest part... but when you say it's over, it's over. There should be no turning back.

I have not been myself for the longest time, and this is the result of a recent dilemma in the matters of my heart. Yes, I've been through a series of break ups with the same person for the past 8 years but this break up will stand out. (For the reason, I will not disclose. It's too personal that I prefer to keep it in private). But, I may say, I've learned the hard way. Literally, THE HARD WAY. I had to endure all the pain before I really allowed my eyes to be opened, my mind to understand, and my heart to feel. I will not say anything negative to the other person involve, he, in all fairness, has been a part of my life. And I will respect him for that.

But yes, I know God has opened my eyes and my mind because He has a purpose in my life. Being hurt is something you can not stop from happening, but being miserable is always a choice. So, yes, I choose not to be miserable and I choose to move forward with God's grace and guidance following me. :) 

"You were happy once without him, you can be happy again :)" 

Another Amen for that! We've lived for the longest time being single so it's not an excuse that you cannot be happy again. Who says that being happy is just because you are in a relationship right now? Oo, masarap ma-inlove, ang saya ma-inlove.. Pero hindi ibig sabihin nun ay SIYA nalang ang tanging dahilan kung bakit ka magiging masaya.  

Surround yourself with people who genuinely love and care for you.. They are your family and friends. I thank God that thru this process, God blessed me with GREAT friends. I am a thousand miles away from home but I am blessed to have TRUE friends to guide me, to listen to me rant on the same reasons over and over again.. Cry like there's no tomorrow, just simply listening and telling you that everything will be alright... It's definitely the best feeling in the world when you're in so much pain.

I am blessed with a very supportive family who never failed to amuse me and show me that life is good and GOD is good. Hindi titigil ang mundo dahil nasasaktan ka, kaya kailangan mong harapin ang sakit kundi tuluyan ka ng mahuhulog at mawawala. So every time you think that you cannot be happy without that specific person... THINK AGAIN. God himself is HAPPINESS, if you haven't experienced GOD you will not experience eternal HAPPINESS. Focus! Stay focused. :) Happiness is on its way. If not now, tomorrow can be beautiful. Just keep the faith. :)

I press on towards the goal

Last night, we had our weekly PRAYER meeting and I know that GOD is speaking to me last night as I listen to all the words of encouragement being shared by my fellow churchmates. But one thing that really strucked me is the word on:

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, press on towards the goal to win the prize which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3:12-14

In life, we should have this specific goal. What do you think is God's plan for you? Do you think he wants you to stay lonely or do you think He wants you to be happy? It's all about knowing your disposition. I remembered an advice given to me by a very dear sister, "God is showing all these things to you for you to learn and not turn back again. Press on towards the goal and maybe that goal is for you to serve Him more. Use this experience as a lesson that will make you stronger in your commitment and ministry to God." 

Hindi ako self-righteous. I know my mistakes as a person, I know my shortcomings. But I will not use that to justify the wrong doings of others around me. If you know the truth and you did not follow it, it's your accountability with God. Mabuti ng bulag sa katotohanan, kaysa nagbubulag-bulagan. :) 

It is better to have loved and lost

I will leave you with this verse in the Bible: 

If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and knowledge, and I if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all my possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 

It is cliche to tell this line that "it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all - Alfred Lord Tennyson" but it's a fact. God is love and love is God. We can only fully experience God's love if we learned how to love. It doesn't matter if that person broke your heart a dozen times, but what's beautiful is... You can still LOVE. The greatest of it all is LOVE. Never give up on love and never give up on God. He has something better in stored for you. Just wait. As what they say, "True love waits", and it really does.

Be blessed and be a blessing!