It’s work work work now.
2nd day in Jeddah. June 27, 2012, 2:21 pm. Here in
my office (naks! Doing nothing just blogging.)
Kakaiba ang pakiramdam na andito na ulit ako sa lugar na ito.
Di ko maexplain kung nahohomesick ba ako o sadyang nasanay lang ako sa Pinas
kaya hinahanap hanap ko ung ingay ng mga tricycle, tahol ng mga aso (especially
ni hatchi hehe), sigawan ng mga batang naglalaro sa labas, tunog ng jeepney,
polusyon ng Maynila at Alabang-Zapote road… at higit sa lahat ang mga boses,
tawa at hagikgik ng mga taong mahal ko.
Hay, ayoko maging emotional noh, kasi parang lagi naman akong
bumabalik ng Jeddah at dito narin ako lumaki.. pero di ko rin maexplain bakit
extra special ang pagbalik ko na to. Ang pag-alis ko nung June 25 ang isa sa
pinaka-emotional na pag-alis ko ng Pinas (at sabi nga ng tatay ko, ngayon lang
daw niya ko nakitang umiyak ng ganun), buong biyahe ko ata pabalik iniyak ko
lang ng iniyak. Haha! Siguro kasi for the past few weeks na lumipas, di ko
iniisip na aalis ako, kaya nung eto na, paalis na ko, nagbreak down na ko. The
hardest part of leaving is not the act itself, but seeing the people you love
and knowing that you will not see those faces for a very long time again.
Oo may skype, viber, facebook, ym, twitter, facetime, atbp.
Pero ung physically mo sila makikita, iba talaga. Iba parin yung andyan ka lang
at pwede mo silang mayakap at any time of the day. Kahit ung mga aso ko
namimiss ko… si Hatchi and si Patchi aka Pacquiao and Bradley. Hehe! Lakas kasi
magharutan nung dalawa, walang ginawa kundi magkagatan at mag-away.
Nakakamiss!!! Kahit madalas akong awayin ni Hatchi, pag kinikiss niya ko
namimiss ko yun. Kahit ung simpleng excited na excited silang dalawa pag
nakikita ka nila nakakamiss! L Oh well, this is life. Life of being an OFW. Hindi
nga madali ang buhay OFW. Akala ko dati basta ako may allowance galing kina
mommy ayos na, di ko alam na mahirap pala tlaga pag ikaw na ang nasa ibang
bansa at malayo sa lahat ng taong mahal mo. Yung feeling na, 365 days ang
bibilangin ko bago ulit ako makauwi at bago ko ulit sila makasama. Grabe. 2
days palang to ah, pano kaya pag 2 months na.. nabaliw na siguro ako. Hehe!
(Joke lang po. Strong kaya to, kasama ko si God and I know di Niya ko
pababayaan. :))
Anyway, bukod sa emotional rollercoaster ride ko for the last
2 days, gusto ko tlaga mag-blog kasi hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang magiging
outlet ko para irelease ang emotions ko. I’ve always been good in hiding my
true emotions, pero minsan may hangganan din ako sa pagtatago. Hindi ko
mapigilan ung maiyak at malungkot. I’ve been here in Jeddah for like forever
but I really miss home and I really miss YOU. Simple and random things that we
do, namimiss ko. If only there’s a way for us to be together again, gagawin ko.
At alam kong ganun ka din. But for now, all we can do is wait… and wait
patiently upon the Lord for His perfect time na magkasama ulit tayo.
Distance should never be a hindrance…
Naniniwala ako na hindi ito dapat maging issue. Na kung tunay
kayong nagmamahalan, hindi magiging hadlang ang di kayo nagkikita kasi sabi nga
“absence makes the heart grow fonder” and “love develops through time”. Love
goes hand in hand with trust, and sabi nga ng mabuti kong kaibigan na si
Ziegrey, love is just an icing in the cake; mahalaga ang trust. TIWALA sa isa’t
isa na kakayanin niyo ang lahat ng bagay kahit magkalayo kayo. Alam ko babe,
mahirap, pero trust me and trust God that He can do great and mighty things for
us and our relationship. I know that were just starting, but we started out as
good friends and I know yung foundation na yun hindi madaling matitinag. Just
trust me when I say that I will wait and hindi ko hahayaan na masira yun habang
magkalayo tayo.
This will test us on how far can we go and how far can we
sacrifice a lot of things for the sake of us to stay together. Yes, mag-aaway
tayo, yes, there will be temptations, but if we will not allow ourselves to be
tempted and to let pride get in the way, we can survive this one year na masaya
parin tayo and going stronger as ever.
Ewan ko, positive kasi ako, alam kong blessing tong
relationship na to from GOD. I did not ask God to give me someone to love, but
He knew what we both need and He knew that we need each other. But we can’t be
dependent on each other kaya kailangan maghiwalay – PANSAMANTALA. J Kung ang kapalit naman nito ay
magandang future diba?
This is just the beginning babe. Maraming marami pang
mangyayari but let’s keep holding on and let’s keep praying together. Sabi mo
nga, prayers can move mountains and it can even bring us closer without us even
knowing it. I love you babe, words will never be enough.
I miss you everyday and I want you to know that I’m
not going anywhere. We’ll pass this through TOGETHER. J I love you and
I miss you. Be strong okay?
Be on
your guard; stand firm in faith; be men of courage, be strong.
-
1 Corinthians 16:13
Thanks for
reading! Be blessed and be a blessing!
P.S. Takas mode sa office. salamat at pwedeng mag-blog spot pampatanggal bagot. hehe!
