Day 2: Lies, betrayal, TRUST.

When TRUST is broken, everything else follows. 


It's amazing how it takes years to build TRUST and just seconds to BREAK it. 

I am not just speaking based on my experience but betrayal of trust is an issue everyone faces. We get betrayed by our friends, lovers, strangers, acquaintances, families or even our own selves. But then again, everything in this world will fail us, but there's only one truth that will remain: God will never fail us. He will never betray us. On the contrary, we are the ones always betraying Him, and that I may say is constant. In our everyday lives, we tend to betray GOD in almost every way. By doing the same wrong things over and over and over again. Think about it. It's time to reflect on how much do we love God and how much can we prevent ourselves from betraying Him? It's about time to re-examine the core of our hearts... Maybe it's time to do something about it. 

Day 2 is a TOUGH one. 

Thanks sissy, Louie for always being there.. <3

I did give a heads up that I will be writing for the next couple of days until I can truly say that I moved on and that I've finally released all the negative vibes troubling my mind.

Well, if Day 1 was challenging, Day 2 is definitely a tough one. I had a roller coaster of emotions and mind you, I wasn't able to sleep. I was awake for 24 hours. Too much thinking deprives you from sleeping. And even eating. Hahaha! (Which is a good one for me since I am on a diet. Just kiddin') I remember Ate Efi telling me yesterday over lunch, "Kaya ka walang apetite kasi stress ka, dami kang iniisip." Oo nga naman, tama nga naman. Over-thinking things. Thinking about someone who's not thinking about you. Thinking about what haves, could haves, should haves, and the like. Isa sa pinaka-nakakapagod na gawin ay ang magisip ng paulit-ulit. Yung tipong gusto mo ng matulog pero hindi mo magawa kasi inaatake ka ng kaaway at kung ano-ano sinisingit sa isip mo. Haaay!


So as I woke up earlier, I was praying to God to release me from these thoughts... and He did. I came across this verse and realized that what I experienced yesterday is not coming from GOD. It came from the enemy.

The thief comes only to steal, to kill, and to destroy; 

I have come that they may have life and have it to the full. 

John 10:10 

I didn't realize that I was being attacked already by the enemy because I was too preoccupied with my thoughts. Instead of rejoicing over the truth, I got stuck with the lie. Instead of being thankful for all the blessings, I dwelled on the negative ones. That's how the enemy attacks us, HE DOESN'T WANT US TO BE HAPPY. That's a sad reality. And most of us fall into that trap. That's why people are lonely, abandoned, and depressed. Because the enemy took the hope of happiness away from them. And I don't want myself neither you, my dear readers, to be included in that list of the lonely, heart broken, and depressed. Ignore the pain and eventually, it will leave you. Trust me. 

Whose fault is it? 

As I was reading a book entitled, "Tomorrow can be Beautiful" by Harold J. Sala, I came across this topic about blaming GOD. I read through it and it hit me, then and there, do I blame God for trials? or do I thank Him for it? As human as we can be, we experience all sorts of trials and in times of failures... in one way or another, we question God and His sovereignty. But is it fair? Is it right to question our Maker because of circumstances that happened maybe because of our own fault as well? Of course not! It's not God's fault and it's not right to blame Him for whatever's happening in our lives right now. 

We live in a broken world. We live in a world where there's no such thing as a fair trial. We live in a world where corruption and lies are acceptable or if not, people don't care any more. We are apathetic and calloused with sin. Even if you are a believer, we are not excused from human failures, accidents, heart aches, and trials in an imperfect world. 

But there is something that we can do as Christians. Instead of feeling down and blaming God, run to Him and pour out your heart to Him in prayer. There is no greater feeling than the feeling of being released from all the negativity and pain. When you cry out to God, you cry out your deepest thoughts... and thru this process, we are slowly being released from the bondage of loneliness and pain. 

I am not a preacher nor am I a saint. I know I failed God in so many ways. I am writing this not to pretend I am holy but rather I am writing this because I am a sinner and I am guilty of all this sins. But we can be redeemed. As long as we have God on our side, we have hope. It is written, "If God is with us, who can ever be against us?" So as I end this, I will leave you with this verse from the Bible: 

Be happy, young man, while you are young, 

and let your heart give you the joy in the days of your youth. 

Follow the ways of your heart and whatever your eyes see, 

but know that for all these things God will bring you to judgement. 

So then, banish anxiety from your heart and cast off the troubles of your body,

for youth and vigor are meaningless. 

Ecclesiastes 11: 9 - 10 

It's not the end of the world, My friend. There is hope and light in the midst of the darkness. It's about time to wake up and move on. :) 

Thanks for reading! Be blessed and be a blessing!